I talk to you everyday and rub my belly, but I’m finally
getting a chance to just sit down and be after a whirlwind three weeks to blog
everything. Television seems to motivate me and today’s show of choice is TLC’s
“A Baby Story”. I figured I’d take
a break from the drama of teenage pregnancies on MTV and watch some happy
married couples deliver their little blessing. Oh and I watched Sesame Street
today. I’m getting myself back
into the swing of watching little kid shows so my nerves are prepared by the
time you want to watch the same episode of Elmo’s world 10 times in a row. It’s been awhile since my days of
watching Barney, Blues Clues and Rollie Pollie Ollie with Kori and Kevyn.
So let’s see, what’s happened since our last blog session. Well, I left my job for a much better
one. I’m going back to a place
where I never thought I’d be able to work again because of my health, but I’m
confident I’ll be able to succeed because I have more resources to manage my
fibro. I won’t go into too much
detail about how my time at my previous job ended, just know that mommy was
classy when someone tried to pull the ugliness out of her. People may poke fun at how many jobs
I’ve held over the years, but I’ve never been without one – that is a lesson my
mom and dad taught me that I will teach you in about 17 years. I start the new job next Monday, and
I’m a bit nervous like always, but ready...and I have a huge weight lifted off my shoulders because I went ahead and called my new boss and told her I was pregnant. I didn't want to start off a new job, lying and trying to hide something and it went surprisingly well and my job is secure :)
Now, onto the great news…me and daddy are married!! Yay!!
Finally right!? J
The day was magical, all the drama and tears and stress were
definitely worth it in the end.
Your west coast family made the journey out here, and so did your
great-grandma from Chicago and I was so glad that they did. It was great to experience that once in
a lifetime moment with them. Of course
your Georgia family was there too.
I was only a bridezilla once in this whole wedding process and that was
on Friday night before the wedding, I was snapping every five minutes – but in
the end everything came out perfect.
Your auntie Kayla even spent the night before the wedding with the rest
of the girls which meant the world to me.
Saturday morning I only got sick once and then you and I were on the
same page I guess because the rest of the day we were fine. I put on my wedding dress and I felt
like a princess and couldn’t keep the smile off of my face. I laughed and joked until it was time
to walk down the aisle, and then I got serious. I was so happy to see everyone there that came to
support. Then I get to the end of
the aisle and I saw TJ and just smiled, then your Grandpa Quyntyn kept saying
“look at your girls, look at them” and I said, “why I’ve seen them all day”
then finally I looked and Kandis was there! That was the most emotional part of
the day and the pictures captured everything and I’m sure the video did
too. Your dad gave me the best
wedding gift ever by suprising me with my best friend being there. I had been texting her all morning long
with details and pictures, I had talked to her up until the point it was time
for me to walk out and there she was…it was great. I’m still getting made fun of for my reaction, but your dad
cried too when he saw me so his make-fun-of-krishelle pass has been revoked. The weather that day was beautiful, the
temperature was just right, everyone looked beautiful – it was just great. The reception was a blast, I couldn’t
stop dancing and moving around, I truly enjoyed myself and was thankful for
everyone that helped us during this process. We have a wedding memory box that we’ve been placing stuff
in, and one day when you’re old enough we’ll pull everything out and share
everything with you.
The honeymoon was also very nice and relaxing. We went to Savannah for two days and
the trip started out rocky because of the hotel management but it turned out
nice in the end. Then we went over
to Hilton Head to sit on the beach and people watch for a day. It was a very
well-deserved trip. Weird being
pregnant on your honeymoon and not being able to drink or eat what you want
(everything I really wanted to eat I ended up throwing up hours later or it
gave me heartburn). I was very
happy that TJ and I had a whole week to just be newlyweds and not focus on
work, the house, bills, etc. We’re
going to try to take one more trip before you get here, I guess they call that
a baby-moon. I think I want to go
to North Georgia so I can see the mountains, but we’ll see.
Our next top priority is moving so we can get a space ready
for you. It is way too cramped in
this apartment with two adults and a small dog, definitely time for a house.
I’ve gotten addicted to HGTV and looking for houses online. The new job starting late pushed the
plan back a month, but we’re keeping our fingers crossed that by September
we’re able to find something and we’ll be able to move in the first week in
October. We are definitely in
super budget and bill paying mode right now.
The only bit of sad news that has had me down the last
couple of days is that I’m not able to go back to school in the Fall. I’m four classes away from my associates
degree, and I was really trying to be done in Spring 2013. But all the classes I need aren’t being
offered at a time that works around my new job. I even tried to retake two classes that I didn’t get an A or
B in, but that didn’t work either.
Your dad said he supports me not taking the new job if I really want to
go to school in the fall and just finish up, but that just doesn’t make any
sense. You’ll be here in about 5
months, and we need as much stability – financial and emotional – as possible. And me, I’m not emotionally stable if
my finances aren’t stable, and that’s not good for you. So even though TJ says no one thinks
this of me, I just want you to know Kam that you do not have a dumb mom just
because college wasn’t finished before you got here. I’ve pushed through a lot to finish what I have and
eventually I will get to the finish line, but right now you have to be my top
priority. Maybe next Summer I’ll
try to hop on the college bandwagon again when I feel more comfortable at work
and I’ve adjusted to motherhood.
But this is obviously God’s way of not letting me take on more than I
can handle. The last couple days
have been rough because the excitement of the wedding has died down and real
life has sunk back in – fibromyalgia pain has been very unbearable this week
which doesn’t help either. I am
ready for Monday, for a new beginning and a chance to learn something new and
prove I can be great at something.
I hope you’re in there growing big and strong Kam, I can see
you’ve got my belly poking out. We
have our next appointment next Thursday and I can’t wait to hear your heartbeat
again. I cant remember whether or
not we find out if you’re a boy or a girl at this appointment, but either way
we’re always excited for these appointments.
I love you and until next time…
Love,
Mommy
